First walk workout, and chit chatting session! Day 73
Sep 19, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6o9TAcMaqw

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everybody so we're all in Ali's bedroom
since you know we have separate rooms
and we're getting ready to walk out the
door actually but I just wanted to check
in with you guys and say good morning I
look like a complete hot mess I have yet
to take my morning shower but we are
running out the door because we need to
run a quick errand really quick and yes
I'm clearly in my workout clothes from
last night I did not sleep in them don't
worry I changed I got to my jammies but
I put this on because after we get back
then I'm gonna go for a walk and this is
my workout attire that I will start
wearing every time I workout anyways yes
I just wanted to say good morning and I
clearly do not have my phone come on you
guys come on I clearly do not have my
phone on the tripod of course because I
literally was grabbing and going but
anyways I just wanted to check and happy
Tuesday it's actually been a very nice
calm day
Maureen so far we'll see how the rest of
the lovely day goes
but yeah they we have two kids in our
toys
I swear pick it up later we have to run
to his lot really quick so we're gonna
do that and I'm going to well he drives
I'm going to edit my vlog from yesterday
so I can get that exported for you guys
so anyways I just wanna check in with
you guys
I'll check in with you in a little bit
okie dokie you guys I am checking in
with you really quick we came home and
we had to wait for our appointment to
happen or like you know so that way then
we can go we have to go and check trade
our cars over because I'm not gonna have
a car to pick up Jeremiah from school so
we're gonna have to go get a car from
Ali's guard I will say that is one plus
about having a husband that owns a car
lot and sells cars for a living is you
always have a mixture of cars that you
can switch around so that is what we are
actually doing right now is we're gonna
go and switch well we're gonna go pick
up a car put the kids as car seats in it
because I'm gonna clearly have to have a
car to pick up Maya from school and then
we will go drop this one off
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tire shop there I'm home
wait to pick up Maya from school and
then go pick up Maya and go back and
pick up the carcass hopefully by then it
will be ready and I have not done my
walk yet this more air today I was gonna
do it earlier this morning but it just
clearly was not it was not gonna work
into our plan so I'm gonna go ahead and
probably do it this afternoon which is
fine it's only 16 it's probably not
gonna get the hug today and it probably
wanted to get home to be honest and
actually Oh Bobby nice weather that I
can take the whole family and make
everybody go for a walk that's the plus
that is the plus so anyways and then I
haven't done preschool yet because it
was just like one spot to the other spot
beyond a time limit and then on top of
everything I don't know what is going on
with my wife I am home for my cable and
then also
I don't know what's going on with my
wife I it was my phone because both of
my wife eyes are lacking and that should
definitely not be happening especially
tomorrow it's both at my house very
crazy
so I told Holly that we're gonna have to
call the cable company because even like
you know we normally have like u2 or
Netflix up for the kids to watch like
there are little kid cartoons and stuff
they haven't been able to even do that
today which clearly they're going
through their little withdrawals you
know because god forbid that they did
not have their cartoons oh my goodness
what would these kids do with these days
but I was able to find paw patrol and
they liked paw patrol so I did I did
make it a good mom a mummy award for
anyway so I made a good mummy award for
the fact that I found a cartoon of a
light but with all of that I was having
the hardest time getting my vlog of
today like literally you guys I've been
really trying to aim towards getting my
vlogs up and running by 11:00 or making
them live by 11:00 and yeah clearly that
did not happen today because it's
already 1:30 and I clearly just now got
it running so I apologize you guys I
definitely did not mean for it to take
that long for me to get it up but
sometimes if that happens then that way
you guys know that sometimes it could be
that my Wi-Fi is messing up somewhere
but hopefully we can get this straight
now because we've a lot of money a lot
of money for our cable and for our phone
bill so somewhere in the mix of pain
that much money we have good internet so
anyways I hope you guys are having a
good morning
well afternoon
I am filling my workout from last night
you guys whoo like I said before I did
not realize that sit-down workouts that
you would fill it and you do
there's a truck in front of me that's
carrying a bunch of chickens I hate
looking at those we're so sad like you
you look at the little cages and some of
them are already dead and oh my look at
the chickens look look at the chickens
look at the chickens inside the cage
okay anyways but I mean I'm not
vegetarian or anything but still it's
clearly sad very hard anyways so
oh I was oh when I was talking to you
about oh yeah okay so anyways it I
definitely am filling that like I am
seriously seriously filling it today
like my legs are sore and my arms look
are filling it so what I'm going to end
up doing is for the first three weeks
I'm gonna do the same yeah honey they're
in a cage yeah they're going to a
chicken farm he doesn't understand
but I'll keep it PG for him anyways they
I'm gonna go ahead and do where I keep
to the same workouts for three weeks and
then it will be the exact same thing you
guys are going to see me doing the exact
same things and I probably will be
wearing the same clothes and the only
reason why I say that is because I'm
trying to find one healthy of a tire
that I could do that I can do for
workout times but honey yeah baby
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we have to trade out a car yes but
anyways so I'm trying to see if I can
just make this gray sure and my black
briefing is like my walk out like
walking and workout outfit give or take
but I mean I'll clearly wear the shirt
other times but if I can just make this
like my workout attire then it will be
easy because then I can workout in it we
do laundry every day like there is
seriously not a day that we so with that
I can wash this every day and have it
ready for my next day's work out whether
it be my and home workout and plus I
have like three pairs of these black
capris I believe three pairs and then I
have one navy blue so I have a couple
pairs that I can switch off and I have a
couple shirts that I could switch off so
I mean there's a few of these that I can
wear to like you know change them if I
don't have a chance to do the laundry
but I just kind of want to keep my
workout outfit separate from my day
workout everyday workout my day outfits
so that's kind of my goal but anyways so
I definitely want to get out today to do
some type of exercise walk if all works
in my favor if not if not then I might
have to just do another sit-down workout
which I mean I'm I'm getting a workout
what either way around it I'm getting a
workout I just thought it would be nice
to involve the kids in a workout which a
walking workout would be fun for them I
think that they would honestly enjoy it
so hold on honey
so anyways that's kind of what I'm
planting that is my plan and we'll see
how it all works out well actually
they're gonna end up doing all four
because the guy said that they needs it
needs all four tires and it needs in
alignment so I'm like oh when it rains
it pours with lots of clouds and foam
okay got a look at the bright side at
least we're all alive if we heard go
hold good because it could have been a
worse scenario how'd it be me driving or
something that would have even been
worse because I probably would have lost
my crap on the freeway like literally so
and with having the kids in the car that
makes it a million times worse yes
sweetie
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not today baby okay the clouds really
the wonderful conversations I have this
is this is the extent of it talking to a
two and three year old about clouds
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couldn't be better though couldn't be
better
I love my job definitely gopher well me
but at the same time sometimes
overwhelming as it gets I stop and I
remind myself how bad I wanted these
precious little gems and I got two for
the price of one and I love them to
death so they can be annoying I suppose
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I think s where's gonna be hope to my
hip even when she's married so don't say
my she lets me out of her sight for two
seconds she would literally not even
come to the car today without watching
me walk out the door first I was like
are you kidding me I'm trying to get my
shoes on she would not go out the car to
get buckled up until I was going out
somebody ran a red light this morning
and right and they intercept I'm going
for
like so scary anyways okay you guys well
I'm gonna jump off but I will check it
with you guys a little bit I just wanted
to Claire clearly say hello and official
good afternoon all right I'm gonna go
okay you guys I told you guys I would do
one or the other and it just seemed like
I don't want you know I can do the
in-house exercising that's great
that's wonderful but the problem with
that is that with that doing the
in-house and exercising I feel like you
know I need to switch it up and so with
that is why I feel the need to do my
walking during their like my three days
and my and house exercising my three
days not only so I don't get the late
being all like what do you want to say
bored but clearly just to change up
things so it's beautiful day though
thank God it's not like extremely hot my
neighborhood I was I contemplate I'm
like should I go should I not I was like
you know what no I'm gonna go gonna do
my walk I'm gonna go is almost like an
if I start to get tired it's okay
stop the end of the world gotta start
somewhere
it's another beautiful honor my husband
wind okay I'll check it with you guys I
love it oh my gosh you guys okay
Olli just picked me up from the walk I
am really proud of myself for sticking
with my goal I know that it's something
that is important for me honey yes we're
gonna go get Jeremiah I think it's very
important for me to no matter what stick
with my goals and so when I say do three
in home workouts 3
wok workouts to me and I think is very
important to keep 2
hey you guys so I am now we just got van
Ilya back so now we are on our way back
to the house
what a mess like what clearly a mess
hold on honey we're going back to the
house okay yeah she misses home where
it's not in here he stayed with daddy so
we kind of split him up because she
wanted to be with me and Omar wanted to
stay in the other cars so I was like
just put her in the car it's fine and oh
god now she's screaming cuz she wants
him well can't help you there
anyways but I was just like sitting here
as I was just driving home and because
when Ollie went to go and get the car we
were parked on another side of the
parking lot and I had both the babies
let's go screaming in the car
Maya was humming in the mix of all of it
and oh my gosh there's people like okay
yeah I'm fine
talking to herself yeah I am anyways and
I was just like sitting there like
getting so frustrated and it's so hard
sometimes I think like you know be not
stay-at-home mom I think sometimes we
feel like we fall short of our patience
you know because you think like you're
always supposed to be this you know
happy-go-lucky never get frustrated with
your children kind of mom you know the
the Mary Poppins kind of thing you know
and it's like what baby
you want to sit down in that car okay
hold on just a second okay we're in
traffic but we will okay
but it's like you know I I get
frustrated with myself I think because
you know they're reacting the kids are
reacting like in the backseat and yeah
baby hold on okay
because we're stuck in traffic this is
traffic time it's the worst time mm-hmm
to be out driving hold on okay hold on
espera hold on hold on okay do you want
Mama's tea okay okay hold on espera hold
on but it's like it's so frustrating at
times because it's like I want so bad to
be that mom that doesn't get frustrated
and is always got a smile and always
being like so you know what Harper's in
compassionate with my kids you know and
something it's but then it's like I find
myself sometimes just getting that
frustration so bad that it's like oh my
god like I just want to like jump out of
the car right now and run away like
there are any other parents like this or
is it just me like does anybody else
have this feeling because I seriously
sometimes especially like today it's
just I don't know I don't know I know
that I really need to start making more
of an effort to get some more time for
myself and and not to make that sound
selfish at all please don't get me wrong
I'm not saying that my husband doesn't
help me or anything like that but you
know the thing is is that holds my shirt
the thing is like for instance all he
has a really easy time like he can go to
Dallas and he goes and visits his
friends or he has a couple friends here
in town that he can go and hang out with
and have coffee or you know whatever and
that's great I mean we all need to have
outlets you know like that or some type
of thing where you can just like get up
and like
leave your home you know and be able to
just to have that time but I don't get
that very often I get that it's very
very rare do I really get a good day to
just be on my own and not feel like
obligated to be home or you know feel
guilty because you know I'm out when I
could be at home with my family and my
kids and you know but then it's like
then I get into days like today who
wears just I feel so overwhelmed like
with the crying and stuff like that is
just I don't know I'm what do you guys
what stay-at-home moms and dads what do
you guys do like what are some things
that you do or did you do when you have
children at home because I know there's
multiple people on here that have older
children but like what did you do to
give yourself that break you know I I do
do an earlier bedtime for the kids you
know they go to bed at 9:00 and then I
have a little bit of time but even then
all he's been coming out a little bit
earlier than normal because he used to
come out of like 11 and then he would
and then he comes out and we will watch
TV or whatever but now it's kind of like
to that point where he comes out at like
10 sometimes so it like really cuts off
like my me time and I don't want it to
be like come off rude to him like hey I
need you to stay in the room a little
bit longer because I really need some
breathing time for just myself but I
also don't stay up late like I did at
you know at one point in the during the
summer you know because if we don't
sleep in we are up early so I go to bed
early so there's that time that's taken
away because I'm going to bed much
earlier than stayin up until you know
one o'clock in the morning so that kind
of disrupts things and but I really want
to get a calendar this is my idea
anyways
I really want to get a calendar and make
like sit down with oli and be like okay
we're gonna put these things on the
calendar the the days that I need you
know you can you know you can work
around however you want to do that
because you know of course he can't make
a schedule like okay well I'm gonna go
this day to say and go and spend time
you know because his friends may not be
you know it capable to do that so that's
fine but you know be able to you know
bring out a calendar me like okay in
this month I need this day this day and
this day to be my days they are on the
calendar it is already scheduled there
is nothing more important than me
getting my time unless it comes to a
mechanical issue like today or some sort
like that then then I can understand not
being able to do that but at the most
part I think that it's gonna have to
become something that is I thought I was
gonna be stuck in the middle of the
intersection I am like that
but I think it's gonna become something
that me and all I need to sit and just
sit down and put on the calendar
Ami's day so that way then we know these
are my days I can get up and go and do
whatever I want to do but be able to do
that on those certain days and it not be
something that I have to wait around
until Ali's ready for me to go like no
it is set scheduled on my planner these
are my days I can you know plan to go
you know go and spend some time with a
friend or that's the problem is
I don't have very many friends not local
friends I have multiple multiple friends
on faith on YouTube and those are
amazing friendships but I don't have
really local friends so to really have
people to like hang out with it's not
very doesn't come very easily for me
because I really don't have that not do
it just like split second because I feel
like when you do that you're not really
getting that full effect of oh my gosh I
know tomorrow I'm getting a total day to
myself I can hold on because I know I'm
getting that total day to myself oh my
gosh it's okay today's gonna be a rough
day but tomorrow I get a whole day to
myself instead of being like oh hey Amy
you can go ahead and take today off and
go and spend your day which would be
fine but you don't have nothing to look
forward to and not I think is where I'm
coming that's I think kind of where I'm
having my issues is I really have
nothing to look forward to and that's
hard sometimes you know because you want
and need stuff to look forward to and I
don't and I feel like I missed that and
so I think that you know
with making schedules and stuff like
that I think that is very crucial to put
that into my scheduling is meantime and
I think I'm gonna sit down with Holly
this evening because I just feel the
frustration building and I don't want it
to get to the point where the
frustration gets the best of me and
that's kind of how I feel like it's
getting is like you know I'm finding
myself not enjoying as much in life as I
should because the frustration is there
and that's not fair that's not fair to
my family that's not fair my kids that's
not fair to my husband you know and
that's not fair to myself you know I
mean life is made to be enjoyed and I do
enjoy life don't get me wrong but right
now because of the frustration that has
built up because of the lack of
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time away I have nothing to look forward
to you know as a parent that works
outside the home and puts their children
in childcare which thank God I've never
had to be that parent I mean I was the
childcare provider but I was I've never
had to put my own children in childcare
and I think that it would break me
immensely
emotionally if I had to put my children
in childcare I think that it would be
one of the hardest things I could do I
can't fathom what the parents feel when
they have to put their children in
childcare so I'm grateful I don't have
to and I get to be my own child's
caretaker but at the same time as those
parents get to go to work with their
children on childcare they get a whole
eight hour plus break from their kids so
when they come to pick up their babies
from childcare they're so excited to see
them because they've been away for a
while so it gives them something to look
forward to because they get to see their
kids and I think that that's just it is
when you're a parent at home care is the
Oh mom dad grandparent whatever it is if
you're a stay-at-home caretaker of
children you don't get that in
in-between break and if you're not
giving that to yourself sorry you guys
are bumping you are on my tripod just
iron my window sticker
but if you're not giving yourself that
break at any given time it's back home
it is bound to happen to get frustrated
and so that's kind of clearly where I am
right now is I'm just burnt out right
now and you know yesterday oh my gosh so
I don't know which one of my little ones
between omar ness or but one of them
snuck into my room and got ahold of my
nail polish remover and dumped it all
over the floor another one of my
children in the mix of getting into my
nails stuff got my acrylic nail powder
thank God they didn't get it in their
eyeball this room and she opened up my
acrylic powder and dumped it all over
the floor and then Omar decide to get a
hold of my artificial tips to my nails
and it's just like it's one mess after
another mess right now my kids are into
this thing where they know it's not that
they're purposely you know way seafood
because they don't think they're at an
age where they know what they're doing a
hundred percent
mana Omar who loves getting cookies that
half-billion so like chocolate cookies
and there's chocolate in the middle of
them will heal pill the chocolate or the
cracker part off and he'll eat the
chocolate on the inside well then he'll
just crush up or just throw the crackers
and leave the rest of the cookies that's
fine
sorry guys sorry the book but you know
so then we have those messes and you
know I so it's chasing after them in
their messes and then dealing with the
whining and the crying and the you know
the behavior tantrum throwing which I
will say is getting a little better and
you know now when Omar starts to throws
fits because he wants something and we
say is that how we ask he'll stop and
then he will he'll rephrases words and
he'll add please to the end of it and
then I'm fine giving them whatever it is
but you know again that's being a parent
extra steps you know that you want to
take with your children to make sure
that they are growing up with manner I
am just trying to
remind myself to have compassion for my
children and understand that they're all
still young you know two of them are
still in such learning ages right now
you know Jeremiah he's you know teased
ten but he's still in that learning
process you know he's still learning and
so to get frustrated and react in a
negative way isn't gonna help the
situation whatsoever but I just I don't
know today has just been one of those
days where I'm just like clearly okay
for my children to take a nap and let me
have some downtime but that ain't gonna
happen it's 35 o'clock but it's okay I
just you know some days I think all
parents have those days and I think
today has just been one of those days
where you know and I think too because
we have been busy with the car
I think the car stress has just been
enough to last me forever you know we go
and pick it up and because they told us
that we're gonna have to get four tires
for runny tires which we did and it's
gonna clearly need an alignment okay
fine
then the guy tells Ollie that no it's
not gonna need an alignment it's
something else that's under the car and
it's gonna cost probably five to six
hundred dollars to get it fixed and
ultimately if we don't get it fixed it's
gonna do the same thing to these brand
new tires that happened but the other
one so it's like
like when when is this like when is the
storm that I pass behind me but again
thank God that we have what we have
they're all in good health
you know materialistic things can be
replaced them and from there so yeah I
don't know we'll see we've got some
talking to do tonight about the car and
see what we was stung but anyways we are
almost home I am right around the corner
I'm just gonna grab the Mel and then I
am so tired I'm ready to crash we're
nowhere close to going to bed yet but
it's okay and today I haven't struggled
with my eating honey yeah I haven't
struggled with my eating but I feel like
today I did a little bit more snacking
than normal and I don't know if that's
kind of coinciding because of just the
stress that I'm kind of under but today
I had the oatmeal for breakfast and then
I had two pieces of pizza leftover pizza
and then I had crackers with cheese and
that's it and then I had my Dutch tea
but I still feel like I just kind of eat
a little bit more than normal because
probably not and then I walked and stuff
today so anyways I will catch on with
you guys with just a little bit
oh you guys I don't know if you could
tell but I am sweating so bad I am so um
it's not hot here but I am just what I
am just dripping sweat I can't get
enough water in me so I walked earlier
which felt amazing and then from walking
we when did our errands came home I
worked on the second part of the wreath
you guys it's gonna take me longer than
I thought
uh because I'm happening to cut my time
up usually I can bust one out within a
good two days sometimes I could even get
him done as in one day but now that I
have kids yeah let's just say Amy's
gonna drop it just a couple times out
but anyways whoo what was I gonna say Oh
so after dinner which tonight for dinner
I had a salad I had two boiled eggs cut
up so almost like a chef's salad except
I had instead of ham
I had spam but it's the turkey spam it
was so yummy
um I've got glitter all over my face I
had been wearing glitter for a couple
days now
I went from looking to find glitter -
that's all I wear now but it's really
not from makeup it's clearly from the
ring the wreath and the tools the tool
um anyways but after dinner then I clean
the kitchen and oh that kitchen need to
be cleaned it's been a couple days since
I've gotten in there really like cleaned
so bless my husband's little heart he
has been cleaning the kitchen but he
cleans it husband Lee so with that I got
in there and put my lovely touches
so it worked up a sweat and then I was
like I'm gonna go and do my closing so
I'll talk to you a little bit honey and
then after this then I'm gonna go and
take a shower and relax for a second
come in here fold all the laundry that's
behind me and go to bed that's the goal
we'll see if it works but anyways so
following up with what we were talking
about in the car about being frustrated
and annoyed and everything else in
between me and Ollie you know we sat
down and talk this evening once we got
back and you know we just had some
one-on-one time which was really nice
the kids were being quiet and we were
able to sit out in the garage and just
sit with the garage door open and just
enjoy the last part of what summers
gonna have for us and we really do you
know we talked and I told him how you
know I'm just getting so overwhelmed
with the kids and just timing and you
know I'm feeling very stretched in
multiple directions and you know we've
really got to come up with some type of
a schedule because I think out of
fairness from me and for him and for the
kids I think that's that's a necessity
and he 100% agreed like he totally was
like II mean I agree with you a hundred
percent you know I tell you to go and
but how the time you say you don't want
to go which is true that is true but I
think it's because again like I was
saying earlier when you see it on my
calendar you have something to look for
forward to but when you know what I'm
being told we'll just go for a drive or
go you know whatever and spontaneous I'm
don't have nothing to work up to so I
have nothing to look forward to so if
yeah I get out and I you know I get that
time but it's it's different than when
you have something planned you know and
so with that I we talked and stuff and
we decided that Sunday's are gonna be
Amy's a day so every Sunday it is my day
now if business comes up then business
comes first obviously I'm very much
aware of that I mean we've got you know
first is first is business so if for
some reason I
this Sunday in fact which should be my
Sunday to go and have my date but
because Ollie has a work lunch he has to
do on Sunday we're going to share
Saturday and I will go in the first part
of Saturday he will go in the afternoon
of Saturday and then from here on out
unless there's business in between
Saturdays will be his day Sunday's will
be my day and then in between the week
he wants me to try really hard every
couple of hours to go sit in our garage
is really nice it mean it's gonna get a
little bit more chillier so we'll have
to kind of work with that and figure
that out but you take 15 minutes every
couple of hours go sit down relax you
know catch up on YouTube or maybe watch
a little bit of a show and make that a
thing that you know every couple hours
for 15 minutes I get to watch a show for
a little bit but every day for every 2
hours 2 or 1/2 hours make that 15
minutes mine and that will definitely
kind of refresh a little bit give a
little bit of relaxation but also be
able to come back in and feel like okay
I broke away for a little bit I allowed
you know my mind to sit for a minute I
might you know I allowed all my emotions
to sit I had nothing going on for 15
minutes there's no talking on the phone
there's none of that it's just straight
15 minutes for me and I agree with them
a hundred percent so I'm going to really
start well I'm not I'm gonna start
trying I'm going to start doing that
tomorrow and I think that you know
another thing that I talked to him about
is I think it's very very very crucial
in every marriage that you'd find time
for each other and we used to before we
had the two babies we had a cousin that
was that lived close by so he would come
over and he would watch Jeremiah on
Sundays and that was mine in Ollie's
date day every Sunday it was date day
and that was so nice because we had
something to look forward to at the end
of the week we knew weekend
nekton that day go to at lunch go to
dinner go to a movie go sit in the car
at the park whatever it might be but we
got to have that time for each other
with nothing involved no phones no kids
no company I mean it was just strictly
us and we needed that and we still need
that we need it more now than we even
did back then it's more tough now
because we don't have someone to watch
our kids though that's the tough thing
is you know we have these children that
we absolutely adore but we don't have
anybody here to really watch the
children and be able to let the kids be
you know with somebody so that we can
get that time so it's our job to make
sure that we are making that time
utilize what we have it doesn't have to
cost money it doesn't have to take us
out of the home find what we have that
can work and make that work you know
when I told him I said you know once a
month let's set up the garage like a
restaurant no reason we couldn't we've
got plenty of side tables and have a
nice dinner out there the kids are in
here playing with Maya we're right here
there's nothing wrong we could put a
movie on let them have some popcorn and
we have that time for ourselves as the
winner gets on and it's gonna get cold
to go sit out in the garage you know we
can find different things to do but it's
very important very very very important
at least having a once-a-month
date night and that could mean anything
but it's very important that we have
time to connect emotionally you know
socially that's another one you know we
try and talk but when you've got two
babies running around and interrupting
you and crying and screaming you can't
get a conversation for the life of you
so in the end of the conversation are
not even in the end in the beginning of
the conversation we're like okay
nevermind and then we don't talk about
what we need to talk about because we've
been interrupted so many times that it's
pointless to try because
that's gonna do is gear us to be angry
in frustrated so that is something I
think is very very very critical for any
marriage in the marriage newlyweds
people that have been married for 60
years I think that it is so important
and that's how you connect with your
partner and I feel like in a way because
we are so busy he's busy with his
business I'm busy with the children we
are busy with our family you know he's
in once he's in one spot I'm in another
spot then we're being torn from two
different places so we don't connect
hardly at all that I feel like you know
I feel like we are disconnected some way
and not in a bad way like I'm not saying
oh my God we're gonna go for a divorce
nothing like that but I want to be as
connected as possible and be as close to
my husband as possible and with that
it's very important to make sure that we
are a priority everything is not
important as my marriage and as my
husband and I was just talking to a
friend of mine you know because she was
going through some issues marital issues
and you know I told her I said you know
the one thing that's so important is
that you and your spouse take that time
you know once a week make that your time
with him set aside some time and that
time it can't have phones it can't have
you know there's no electronics there's
no nothing it is just you two and you
two only that way you guys can talk you
know you know reminisce about the past
and talk about the future and you know
all those things and I said you know
that is so funny that we're having this
conversation because I just had this
conversation with ollie and I said and
it's so true and you know as I was
sharing those were things with her it
really spoke to me that what exactly I'm
telling her is exactly what I need and
want for my marriage and so it was very
interesting how that conversation both
happened where I had it earlier with my
husband
having it with my friend about her and
her marriage and you know and she just
was thinking me so much about you know
giving her that that information in that
tip because it's definitely something
that I think sometimes can be foreseen
you know when you work to you know when
you and your spouse work full-time jobs
one spouse might be in school along with
working a full-time job I mean so many
things can be a barrier in between you
and your marriage but at the end of the
day you have to ask yourself what is
most important what's most important is
you know world problems more important
than my marriage is my friends you know
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issues she's having you know five weeks
ago my issue for my marriage know will I
always be there for my friends you're
right I will but if there is a time that
I'm cutting out for me and my husband my
phone is off my phone is gone there is
no nothing that's going to interrupt
that special time with me and my spouse
because once I'm done with my time with
my spouse then I can pick up the phone
and say oh so-and-so called me or
so-and-so texts me and so I need to get
back to them because they are having a
problem and I will then at that time
take the time to call my friend or call
family member whoever needs me but that
time but when you're having that sacred
time with your spouse that time I
believe should be so protected and not
interrupted and so we're gonna start
that because it's needed in the Ramadan
house but anyways so yeah it was a very
interesting day it was a very long very
long day and hopefully we can just get
all this stuff squared away with the car
and and then I got the papers for I knew
they were coming up for Jeremiah's
pictures so I'm trying to figure out
what package you know you get those
school pack I remember I still see my
school pictures floating in boxes but
it's like you get those packages with
more
suitable pictures like 30 pictures or
whatever it is and it's like all you
need is one picture and half of the time
that school picture probably doesn't
even end up on your wall it merely said
in my house I don't have like I don't
have any pictures other than the three
pictures that are on my main wall when
you walk in my front door oh no sorry
into my living room and then in my main
when you entry there's the one for that
looks like a window of the four pictures
of us but other than that I don't have
pictures hanging up with my family I
know people that do you know that have
multiple pictures all over their house
of all their families and but I just I
don't know why I've just never been that
type of a person but it's still special
and it's still important to get that for
my baby so I'm trying to figure out what
package I'm gonna get him and then we
got the jog-a-thon coming up you got his
paper today so he's very antsy about
asking for donations for his jog-a-thon
he's so funny um so yeah we have a
little bit of paperwork to finish
tonight for him and then other than that
I'm gonna be chilling because I've had a
long day I have a headache and I want to
go so anyways with that said I think I'm
going to close here and see what
tomorrow holds tomorrow is Wednesday I
did not get preschool done today with
the kids because it was too chaotic for
this morning so I was just like never
mind we're already at the evening time
I'm not even gonna try and do it so I
think I'm gonna do it tomorrow because I
think tomorrow is gonna be a better day
for that so anyways I hope you guys had
a wonderful wonderful day today I hope
you enjoyed my vlog and I will check in
with you guys tomorrow fresh and early I
will see you then take care sweet dreams
bye
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moment
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